Can you believe it’s almost Christmas, which means we are also almost to 2019?! I sure can’t! This time of year is my favorite time of year – between Christmas, my birthday, family time, decor, music, gift giving, basically all the things! Sometimes, though, this time of year is also really difficult for me. My birthday and the start of a new year tends to bring up a bunch of anxiety towards how I’m not where I thought I would be in life and to be honest how I don’t exactly know where I’m going.
I’ve also recently found myself completely consumed by social media and this blog. When I started this blog I was mainly looking for an outlet for my feelings and getting to connect with people was an added bonus. Recently I’ve been feeling the pressure (self inflicted pressure) to make this something more. Could it be my job? Can I make money off of it? A lot of this has to do with me turning 26 in a couple of weeks and feeling like I’m behind in life. Don’t get me wrong, I would love for this to be my career. Writing these blog posts and connecting with people through my writing has quickly become a passion of mine! This is definitely an avenue I want to pursue and see what could happen, but I feel like right now I’m not doing it in the right way. I’ve been getting caught up in all the “how-to’s” and “must haves” for a successful blog that I’m struggling to focus on my number one goal when starting this – to produce content that is real, raw, and honest. Sometimes for me that means not getting a blog post out every week, which should be okay but lately I’ve been beating myself up for not meeting this invisible deadline.
Anyways, all this is to say that I don’t want to let this favorite time of year pass by with me being caught up in my online world. I’m going to take a break for the holidays and spend some time connecting with my loved ones and working on good content to have ready for when I get back in the swing of things. I will definitely stay active on my Instagram and Facebook pages so make sure you are following along on those as well. I just feel like I need some time to reconnect with why I started doing this in the first place and disconnect temporarily from the business of it. I appreciate all of your support more than I could ever express and can’t wait to reconnect with you all post holidays. I hope you have a wonderful holiday season filled with love and joy!
Until next time. 🧡